Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Life Decisions




It's crazy to believe that only three, short years ago, I was about to embark on a four-year journey of career path that would affect my entire life.

Some people at this stage in their life look back and try to remember if this is anything remotely similar to what they had envisioned themself doing as a child. Most people usually never end up following that childhood path, as God more often than not, has something else for that person in mind. But I, I was quite the opposite. I had wanted to be a nurse since I was hey-high. I remember particularly drawing a picture of a nurse and showing my dad when I was five. My dad, the doctorate engineer, studied this illustration and said, "Why do you want to be nurse? Why not a doctor". A doctor? But I wanted to be a nurse. I always did. However, I had toyed with the idea of pursuing medicine for years. My teachers told me I was smart and amicable enough to do so. But I felt directed down a different path. A path in which I felt the lord calling me to follow from a very young age.

I have to admit, I did doubt myself for quite sometime if it really was what I wanted to pursue or not. I had the opportunity of applying to nursing right from high school, which would have cut down my years of post-secondary education from 6 years to 4 years. But I felt, no, I need to wait. I want to take my time and see if this is really for me. I did two years of general studies, doing courses that could be applied to both nursing, biology or kinesiology degree (two backup plans in case nursing didn't work out). In those two years I became an active member of a Salvation Army on-campus group also known as SASF. With this group, I made many close friends and found a way to share my love for God with other people my age also pursuing a post-secondary education. I was given the wonderful and honorable opportunity to become worship leader and attended the group's weekly bible study sessions. I don't think I would have became so closely involved with this group had I been in nursing straight from high school.

I started my first year of nursing in September 2008 and haven't had a second thought about it since. Okay, I'll admit. There has been a TON of times where I felt so overwhelmed that I didn't think I would make it. But I had so much support from my family and friends, including the SASF group, to persevere and work as hard as I could. That God was on MY side. I felt that with so many people praying and pushing for me to go all the way, I knew, this career path was without a DOUBT for ME!

I feel such a peace with God since deciding to be a nurse and of all the things in life I have ever accomplished, this is one I am most proud of.

I want to be the best nurse I can be. I want people to feel the presence of Jesus when I am caring for them. I want lives to be changed and for people to know that while medical technology is wonderful, there are things that not even the smartest doctors and latest technology can fix. Sometimes a little prayer is the best medicine.

"...for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took me in; I was naked and you clothed Me; I was sick and you visited Me; I was in prison and you came to Me.' Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see You hungry and fed You, or thirsty and give You drink? When did we see You a stranger and take You in, or naked and cloth You? Or when did we see You sick or in prison, and come to You?' And the King will answer and say to them, 'Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to Me.' " - Matthew 25:35-40

Born this way.

After watching tonight's Glee's episode, I feel I need to come out and embrace my insecurities. Cheesy as it sounds, everyone needs to do a little self-loving. God made you perfect as you are and you should never change for anyone. Love yourself and embrace that you were "born this way".

When I tell people my testimony of how I grew up and came to know God, people are shocked. They are shocked to learn all the baggage I've carried around, all the insecurities I've had. But I had to come to the realization that God made me this way for a reason. I was fearfully and wonderfully made.

I used to hold onto these insecurities:



But because of God's grace and mercy...



...No matter what anyone says.

I feel a testimony blog coming on real soon but I can't say when. You'll just have to keep reading to see.

Love yourself for who you are. God makes NO mistakes =)

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Fashion and food

I mentioned how I spent most of yesterday with my friend Stacey. We went to Starbucks for drinks and then to the Thrift Store for some vintage shopping. I am loving how I can buy things for dirt cheap and have such stylish items. I am really loving the pastels, the floral prints and layered silk scarfs for this seasons, most of which I found in the Thrift Shop. I spent altogether under 40 dollars for 9 items, which would have probably cost me over 200 dollars if I bought it in the mall.

(Please don't judge my carpet! It's the old one in the basement next to the washing machine, as I refuse to wear these clothes before washing them first!)

I love, love, love this pink clutch. I wear so much pink on a regular basis and is good when I'm wearing neutrals and blacks for that pop of color in my outfit. It can tottally be worn with a casual or dressy outfit. I also love how I can wear it with or without a strap.




This pink dress is perfect for spring and summer. I can wear it to a wedding or church OR I can also make it super casual and throw on a jean jacket over it. I love the pink crinoline layer underneath :)




I love this green satin skirt. It is a little short, but pairing with a pair of black leggings would look super cute. I can also dress this skirt up or down.


This floral shirt is the epiphany of what I want my summer style to be :) While I can just wear it loose and buttoned-up, it is a bit big on me so I figured I could also tie it up as a crop top, put a dark cami on underneath and wear it with a pair of high waisted jeans or shorts!


(Tied up as a crop top)


This skirt is my FAVORITE item that I bought at the Thrift Shop. I really, really wanted a short, flouncy floral skirt to wear for this season but not spend a lot of money, since the warm weather does NOT last long where I live. This skirt incorporates all the colors I have in my wardrobe already, so I can wear it with virtually anything and it would match! Also, only $4.99 !! =)



The next few scarfs I bought were for a dollar - altogether!!!






LOVE me some deals!!

I started planning for some of the food I want to have at my party. I really don't want to spend too much money, so I'm trying to think of creative ideas that won't break the bank, but look super adorable and taste great at the same time.

Some things I want to have:

+Party Mix
+Crush (It comes in neon colors - perfect for an 80's party - orange, lime, pinapple, and cream soda)
+chips and onion dip with hot pink food coloring
+bright orange Doritos chips
+Ketchup Chips
+Cheesies
+Veggie and fruit trays
+Mayybeee hot wings
+deserts and rainbow "Like a Virgin" (Get it?! "Like a Virgin"? Madonna? The 80's? Yeah? Okay, I'm lame)

Some Ideas I have for desserts:

Colored oreo truffles (I'll post the recipe later on =) ):

Maybe not THIS elaborate, but you get my point. They are actually super easy to make!

Neon Cupcake Tree:


Cake Batter Rice Crispy Treats:


Rainbow "Like A Virgin" Jello Shots (Alcohol Free!):


Yummy yummy.
Hope you all have a wonderful day =)

Happy Easter, Everyone =)



I celebrate this weekend proudly. I celebrate this weekend because I am not perfect. I celebrate this weekend because in the past, I've failed and will continue to fail. I celebrate this weekend because through it all, God has offered me the gift of forgiveness and eternal life, even after I've screwed up so many times.

I, while enjoying a beautiful spring day with my friend Stacey, used the time to reflect on what God has done for me, how I am blessed, despite how imperfect I am.

I mention frequently in these journals how I have slipped a little in my Christian ways. I haven't been the light in lives of others as I ought to be, to be able to stand out. I need to consistently ask God to help me with that one. To be proud of my faith and stand guard to my values and beliefs, despite what others may think.

Jesus did such a humbling task of dying on the cross for me, so that I didn't have to for my sins.

I've honestly found that by doing these journals and listening to others on blogspot write about their journeys as a young adult Christian, I feel ever so inclined to make the effort to make things right with God again.

I want to delete all the journals which I've use profanity and talked of things such as hangovers and drinking. I'm so done with it. Spring is a new season of new life. I want to turn a new leaf in my life.

I have felt the compelling urge to write my testimony on this blog someday. It is pretty profound and clearly states how God really does take the "weak" to make as His leaders.

Thank you, Jesus, for giving your life up for me so that I can live eternally in heaven.

I wish you all a blessed Easter and remember that greatest gift of eternal life we have been given as a result of this day.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Embarrassing & Awkward Photos

So, I've been wanting to do this for a very, very long time and then Jennifer from The Blair Affairs did a blog on "Embarrassing College Photos". I would normally be completely mortified to do this type of thing as I have MANY embarrassing photos, but seeing as I will be one year older in a week and half, I figure I may as well hang onto the memories of my foolish youth for a bit longer by doing this. Most of these are from my last year of high school and first couple years in university. Viewer Discretion is advised:

It all started back in high school...


This is what we did to amuse ourselves
when we felt like this...



Why?

But then we attended a Christian youth conference in September of 06' called "YC". That's really where the fun began...


Natasha and Amanda on the bus to YC after yes, FOUR, hours sleep.

We started drinking sprite in the hotel room and things got a little... wild.






Then came the bubbles...


Lots and lots of bubbles..


And we didn't have bubble bath, so we used shampoo instead!


Drinking sprite and eating oreos in zee tub.


Nice one


We all fall into the bathtub together...


Tada! Complete with oreos in our OPEN MOUTHS! dearrrrrrr lord.
This is the sexiest.


EWWWW.


If Matty saw this, our relationship may never be the same...


Just... why? WHY!?


The bubble beard


Okay, just so I can explain. There is a tradition in the province I live in called
"Mummering". Google it up and you'll find out exactly where I live :) But anyhow, tradition has it, you find the most ridiculous things (Ie. shoes worn as gloves, mittens worn as boots, wearing bras on the outside of your winter clothes.. yuuuppp) to throw on and a few nights before Christmas you go door-to-door decked in such foolish attire. Kind of works the
same as Trick-or-treating, but no candy :( People usually go carolling and make others guess who they are (Obviously you wouldn't go to a stranger's house). But we did this in APRIL!!! Not December. HAHAHA.


Apparently she didn't want it.. hahaa.. dear me.


Why is there random "war paint" on Tasha's face???


Just. Don't. ask.. LOL


Little red riding from da' HOOD!


Welllll......


I look like a gorilla.


Yes. This was done in public. Broad daylight. No, we did not have permission.


This is why she is my best friend =)


HAHAHA..


Couldn't even get the tutu up over my "ghetto booty".. hahahahahaha..


I'm surprised security didn't take us away!!


A new fashion trend.


This LEGITIMATELY happened.

BUT THE BEST....



OH, but I did...

ANDDDD



"Ducks crossing"

And because of all this..


Tash and "these girls" were the only friends I had.


What was I THINKING!?


???


Preparing for my first child, by the looks of my dress. OH MY!


How attractive.


How cheesy.


Another infamous mummering picture. Christmas '07, I do believe. I have so many blackmail pictures for my wedding slideshow...


Hahahaha. Emily! I think the skirt goes on your butt, sweetie.


CHEEES-YYYYY hahahaha.. But I still like it =)


We have.... issues.


Ohhh, biology class. You bring out the WORST of me...




GHETTO FABULOUS!..



The wonders of a macbook and some gansta' duds.

The next few are GOLD STAR embarassing........


Oh MY.


We all got dates after facebook saw this picture. Not even going to attempt to understand what was going on...


Adrienne looks possessed.


Some kind of interpretive dance, perhaps??? haha.


Crouching tiger, hidden dragon...


Kate ruined it.


Awkward isn't the word


IT'S A GIRL!!
(She's gonna killllll me! Mwahaha..)


Now Becca and I are pushing out babies and Vincent is teaching us how to breathe. HAHA!


hahahahahaha..


Sarah protecting her "young"


Mine's out, and now we're helping Becca give birth


This is how we dance where I'm frum'


Another cheesy Christmas pose.


Creepy.


We love costumes.


Dear lord.


Why, yes. I am outside on New Year's Eve in Minus 10 degree weather in running shorts.


Roomie and I at my "Medical Madness" themed birthday.


I am such a retard.

Hope you've enjoyed. =)