Wednesday, June 29, 2011
PMS Inspired. HAHA!
Why yes, I am sick and twisted. But might as well make something funny about this dreadful time of the month! Hope you enjoy my ridiculous sense of humor =)
Family
I know everyone thinks their own family is a bit strange and wonky. I know that's normal. And you spend your time consuming your head with the notion that all other families are more perfect than yours, when alot of the time, they are thinking they are the ones that are strange and wonky and consider your family normal.
I love my family. I really do. Sometimes I wish things ran a bit differently, though. But when I think of all the things that are screwed up in my own family, I use this as an opportunity to make a mental note of what to avoid when I have a family of my own someday.
Maybe it's because I have two-two family. If you ever have read the "Babysitter's Little Sister" series of books in the '90's then you probably know what I'm implying to when I say "two-two". The main character Karen grows up with divorced parents and adapts to living in a world of duplicates - two bedrooms, two Christmases, two Easter dinners, two birthday suppers. Two of everything. It's not as bad now as it was when my brother and I were younger. Now, we just pick one place where we want to spend Christmas or birthdays and that's that. No fuss involved. But as easy as it is now, I wonder how complicating this may get as I grow older.
I convocate next year and I only receive three tickets for my grad dinner and dance. Usually, for most people, those tickets are for the dad, mom and a date (boyfriend, husband, etc..). But I have no idea how that is going to work as my parents have absolutely no communication with one another. I obviously want both my parents there, but just not at the same table.
What about when I get married? My parents aren't overly thriller over the idea of it anyway. I'm pretty sure they want me to invest in a house with someone and live in a domestic partnership forever until I want to have kids (because wanting to have kids is the only reason to get married, apparently?) instead of spending money on a wedding. I understand some of their logic, but at the same time, a part of me feels like they are both bitter towards the idea of marriage because of their own unsuccessful marriage. I do realize, yes, some people really go too far with the overly elaborate weddings these days. But there is a way to come to a happy-medium and spend for a stunning yet simple and affordable wedding. I have a funny feeling I'm going be paying for my own wedding, every bit of it, without my parents' support. Not that I would ever ask, but I see so many people getting married these days, the parents ever so happy and giving them so much emotional, and if needed, financial support. I have my doubts I'll be getting either of it.
It would be so awkward to have both my parents at my wedding, anyway. Usually, the bride's parents sit together. I'd be lucky if you got both of my parents to even attend the reception at the same time.
Most all of my friends come from homes with both parents living under the same roof and ask me if I find it hard having parents that are divorced. To be honest, I've never even thought about it. My parents have been divorced for so long, it's just something I've gotten used to. As much as I would give anything in the world to have two loving parents under the same roof, I would much rather them living happily in separate houses with no fighting, bickering or harsh words.
I know that even while my family situation hasn't been the greatest on times, God's surely made up for it by blessing me with wonderful friends. I honestly don't know what I'd do without them.
All I can say to those of you with un-divorced parents - cherish it. I say this not out of jealousy, but as words of wisdom. Cherish those moments you have with your whole family together. The family dinners, the Christmas mornings, the sitting together at church, the vacations, and the birthdays. Please, cherish them. It absolutely breaks my heart to hear young people with wonderful families complain about having to get together for dinners and special occasions. You never know what can happen. Take the time to appreciate your family each day.
While I find it rough growing up in a so-called "broken home" (I really hate that term), I still take the opportunity to thank God for my parents. Even while divorced, they are still and always will be my parents. I couldn't have gotten this far without them :)
I love my family. I really do. Sometimes I wish things ran a bit differently, though. But when I think of all the things that are screwed up in my own family, I use this as an opportunity to make a mental note of what to avoid when I have a family of my own someday.
Maybe it's because I have two-two family. If you ever have read the "Babysitter's Little Sister" series of books in the '90's then you probably know what I'm implying to when I say "two-two". The main character Karen grows up with divorced parents and adapts to living in a world of duplicates - two bedrooms, two Christmases, two Easter dinners, two birthday suppers. Two of everything. It's not as bad now as it was when my brother and I were younger. Now, we just pick one place where we want to spend Christmas or birthdays and that's that. No fuss involved. But as easy as it is now, I wonder how complicating this may get as I grow older.
I convocate next year and I only receive three tickets for my grad dinner and dance. Usually, for most people, those tickets are for the dad, mom and a date (boyfriend, husband, etc..). But I have no idea how that is going to work as my parents have absolutely no communication with one another. I obviously want both my parents there, but just not at the same table.
What about when I get married? My parents aren't overly thriller over the idea of it anyway. I'm pretty sure they want me to invest in a house with someone and live in a domestic partnership forever until I want to have kids (because wanting to have kids is the only reason to get married, apparently?) instead of spending money on a wedding. I understand some of their logic, but at the same time, a part of me feels like they are both bitter towards the idea of marriage because of their own unsuccessful marriage. I do realize, yes, some people really go too far with the overly elaborate weddings these days. But there is a way to come to a happy-medium and spend for a stunning yet simple and affordable wedding. I have a funny feeling I'm going be paying for my own wedding, every bit of it, without my parents' support. Not that I would ever ask, but I see so many people getting married these days, the parents ever so happy and giving them so much emotional, and if needed, financial support. I have my doubts I'll be getting either of it.
It would be so awkward to have both my parents at my wedding, anyway. Usually, the bride's parents sit together. I'd be lucky if you got both of my parents to even attend the reception at the same time.
Most all of my friends come from homes with both parents living under the same roof and ask me if I find it hard having parents that are divorced. To be honest, I've never even thought about it. My parents have been divorced for so long, it's just something I've gotten used to. As much as I would give anything in the world to have two loving parents under the same roof, I would much rather them living happily in separate houses with no fighting, bickering or harsh words.
I know that even while my family situation hasn't been the greatest on times, God's surely made up for it by blessing me with wonderful friends. I honestly don't know what I'd do without them.
All I can say to those of you with un-divorced parents - cherish it. I say this not out of jealousy, but as words of wisdom. Cherish those moments you have with your whole family together. The family dinners, the Christmas mornings, the sitting together at church, the vacations, and the birthdays. Please, cherish them. It absolutely breaks my heart to hear young people with wonderful families complain about having to get together for dinners and special occasions. You never know what can happen. Take the time to appreciate your family each day.
While I find it rough growing up in a so-called "broken home" (I really hate that term), I still take the opportunity to thank God for my parents. Even while divorced, they are still and always will be my parents. I couldn't have gotten this far without them :)
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Where are you summer, why can't I find you?
I am very disappointed with the weather here where I live so far. We have had a total of THREE days where the weather has been over 15 degrees with drizzle and fog.
It is so depressing! I used to firmly believe that summer was my fsvorite holiday, but that is DEFINITELY not the case while living in the city that I do. I'm pretty sure that autumn will stand now as my favorite season. We do have BEAUTIFUL autumns here.
Call me crazy, but I've already been eye-ing some pieces / looks I have in mind that I want to wear for fall. I can't wait to go to BC and shop!
Cute colorful cardigans for layering.
I want a backpack like this SOOO bad :D
Brogues in every color!
I wish we had a REAL summer! :(
It is so depressing! I used to firmly believe that summer was my fsvorite holiday, but that is DEFINITELY not the case while living in the city that I do. I'm pretty sure that autumn will stand now as my favorite season. We do have BEAUTIFUL autumns here.
Call me crazy, but I've already been eye-ing some pieces / looks I have in mind that I want to wear for fall. I can't wait to go to BC and shop!
Cute colorful cardigans for layering.
I want a backpack like this SOOO bad :D
Brogues in every color!
I wish we had a REAL summer! :(
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Tom's and sundresses
So, it's not Disney princesses this time, but it's my favorite summer style this year. So comfy and casual, yet, so girly and elegant. It's perfect for going out when you aren't sure whether to dress up or down. I've also paired it with coordinating lipsticks and nail polishes. Sundresses can be bought just about anywhere for pretty cheap. And while Tom's shoes can be pricey, they are going towards a great cause. By purchasing one pair, you are also buying another pair of shoes for a child in a third-world country. Not to mention, they are SUPER comfy. I wear mine ALL the time!
Happy summer =)
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
So this journal is on a more serious topic.
There is so much going on right now I can't even begin to explain it all. Everything is changing. We're all growing up so fast and moving on with our lives. It's exciting, it's scary, it's fun, it's sad, it's happy.
I don't even know what to write right now, except that my head is bursting from thinking so much about everything.
Graduation is only a year away. Am I ready? A part of me thinks, this is it, but then I know there is going to be another big thing that I'm going to have to work on, strive for, and make sacrifices over. I have said this before and as much as I can't repeat it anymore, I LOVE being a nurse. I feel like after all the mistakes and poor decisions I've made, this certainly is not one of them. It brings me so much peace and security. There is not one doubt in my mind that God chose this exact career path for me and I am so glad I stayed focused long enough to follow down that road.
You never know what life is going to bring you. There are some things you have absolutely no control over. But for what you do have control over, use your that freedom to make wise decisions.
One of my very good friend's dad was diagnosed with terminal esophageal cancer two years ago. I lived next door to this family for most of my life. Our mothers took my friend and I to 'Mom and Baby' swimming lessons. Her father picked me up from school, dance class, girl guide meetings, voice lessons, cooked dinner, lunch and made fires and pitched tents for me and Julia in the backyard over the 20-something years. This man is a genuine loving and caring person. He's been the father for me when my dad wasn't around. Now this man is counting his possible last days on earth, wondering if he'll ever live to see his younger daughter and son graduate, get married, have kids. But the one wrong decision he made, was to start smoking at a young age. We do things when we're younger, thinking that it won't last and because it's fun in the moment, but little do we know and understand the long-term repercussions of our mindless decisions.
I am lost for words on how to talk to my friend, her family and her dad because everyone right now feels like they are walking on egg shells. I see this man's condition from a medical point of view and know that he has very little time left. But, I also am slowly understanding what it is to be empathetic, and to put myself in the shoes of this family. I can't imagine how they could be feeling right now knowing that their loved one is in their last days of life. I know there are so many emotions running through that household. Feelings of hostility, anger ("why us? why me?"), feelings of fear and unknown, feelings of despair and hopelessness.
But through it all, the only thing left to do is pray. Pray that even though there is so much uncertainty, God is there through it all to restore peace in these most difficult times.
I've been feeling a slew of mixed emotions today. One, because of the situation with my friend's family. Two, my mom has been having some health problems for the past little while. The symptoms she is having are very ambiguous in nature and nothing is adding up to point towards any specific diagnosis. I just pray that there is nothing seriously wrong.
I am currently experiencing an internal struggle within myself that I've been going through for years. It involves making potentially one of the biggest decisions of my life. I have to ultimately choose one path, but there are two to pick from. Both come with a slew of pros and cons. I have no idea what I'm going to do and I really need to make up my mind soon. I have too much pride built up to pick the latter on the two paths. But it is the only one that sits with peace in my heart, no matter how hard I've prayed against it. I've just been letting everything mush together on its own - whatever is meant to be will be.
My biggest problem is that I'm a huge people-pleaser and would rather do what others want than what I want. I just try to live up to the expectations everyone thinks of me to be, when really, I'm not that person at all. It gives me a sense of security, a sense of belonging, and pride. I know deep down, God wants me to be humble, and be at a place in life where I do not take life for granted and ignore everything outside of my self-absorbed bubble.
I need to feel more confident in who I am and not try to be somebody else. I always seem to find myself left feeling insecure about one thing or another.
I've ranted so much about this, but I need to get out of this province for a bit to think about everything. Going to Vancouver in August, I believe, is going to be the best thing for me. I feel really good about it. As much as I'm in the hole financially, somehow, I managed to have enough to make the long trip across the country. I think it's going to be so much fun!
Okay.. Ranting is over. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend :)
Stay safe!
There is so much going on right now I can't even begin to explain it all. Everything is changing. We're all growing up so fast and moving on with our lives. It's exciting, it's scary, it's fun, it's sad, it's happy.
I don't even know what to write right now, except that my head is bursting from thinking so much about everything.
Graduation is only a year away. Am I ready? A part of me thinks, this is it, but then I know there is going to be another big thing that I'm going to have to work on, strive for, and make sacrifices over. I have said this before and as much as I can't repeat it anymore, I LOVE being a nurse. I feel like after all the mistakes and poor decisions I've made, this certainly is not one of them. It brings me so much peace and security. There is not one doubt in my mind that God chose this exact career path for me and I am so glad I stayed focused long enough to follow down that road.
You never know what life is going to bring you. There are some things you have absolutely no control over. But for what you do have control over, use your that freedom to make wise decisions.
One of my very good friend's dad was diagnosed with terminal esophageal cancer two years ago. I lived next door to this family for most of my life. Our mothers took my friend and I to 'Mom and Baby' swimming lessons. Her father picked me up from school, dance class, girl guide meetings, voice lessons, cooked dinner, lunch and made fires and pitched tents for me and Julia in the backyard over the 20-something years. This man is a genuine loving and caring person. He's been the father for me when my dad wasn't around. Now this man is counting his possible last days on earth, wondering if he'll ever live to see his younger daughter and son graduate, get married, have kids. But the one wrong decision he made, was to start smoking at a young age. We do things when we're younger, thinking that it won't last and because it's fun in the moment, but little do we know and understand the long-term repercussions of our mindless decisions.
I am lost for words on how to talk to my friend, her family and her dad because everyone right now feels like they are walking on egg shells. I see this man's condition from a medical point of view and know that he has very little time left. But, I also am slowly understanding what it is to be empathetic, and to put myself in the shoes of this family. I can't imagine how they could be feeling right now knowing that their loved one is in their last days of life. I know there are so many emotions running through that household. Feelings of hostility, anger ("why us? why me?"), feelings of fear and unknown, feelings of despair and hopelessness.
But through it all, the only thing left to do is pray. Pray that even though there is so much uncertainty, God is there through it all to restore peace in these most difficult times.
I've been feeling a slew of mixed emotions today. One, because of the situation with my friend's family. Two, my mom has been having some health problems for the past little while. The symptoms she is having are very ambiguous in nature and nothing is adding up to point towards any specific diagnosis. I just pray that there is nothing seriously wrong.
I am currently experiencing an internal struggle within myself that I've been going through for years. It involves making potentially one of the biggest decisions of my life. I have to ultimately choose one path, but there are two to pick from. Both come with a slew of pros and cons. I have no idea what I'm going to do and I really need to make up my mind soon. I have too much pride built up to pick the latter on the two paths. But it is the only one that sits with peace in my heart, no matter how hard I've prayed against it. I've just been letting everything mush together on its own - whatever is meant to be will be.
My biggest problem is that I'm a huge people-pleaser and would rather do what others want than what I want. I just try to live up to the expectations everyone thinks of me to be, when really, I'm not that person at all. It gives me a sense of security, a sense of belonging, and pride. I know deep down, God wants me to be humble, and be at a place in life where I do not take life for granted and ignore everything outside of my self-absorbed bubble.
I need to feel more confident in who I am and not try to be somebody else. I always seem to find myself left feeling insecure about one thing or another.
I've ranted so much about this, but I need to get out of this province for a bit to think about everything. Going to Vancouver in August, I believe, is going to be the best thing for me. I feel really good about it. As much as I'm in the hole financially, somehow, I managed to have enough to make the long trip across the country. I think it's going to be so much fun!
Okay.. Ranting is over. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend :)
Stay safe!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
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Saturday, June 18, 2011
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Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Beauty and the Beast Inspired
My ULTIMATE favorite movie as a child. Words cannot describe the love I have for Beauty and the Beast. Even though it is a tale as old as time, I will never become bored of it! The songs are pure magic which I'm sure every little girl who grew up in the 90's knows every word to them! I never want to grow old after watching this movie =)
Monday, June 13, 2011
Let me be your wings
Any girl of the 90's has to remember this movies. No, it wasn't Disney, but it was still frickin' awesome. The songs and images which brought imagination and magic into our lives. So wholesome, so pure, so tiny - no bigger than your thumb! I'm pretty sure I watched this VHS tape (yes, VHS!) about 200 times a year until I was 9 and it was no longer cool. =(
I absolutely love this fairy-tale style with the innocent pastel and floral accents. I love, love, love peasant tops and ballet flats and would relive my childhood by wearing this :)
I will do a different childhood movie for the next few posts and my fashion take on each one. Hope you enjoy! =)
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Lovely Lavender
I have my favorite colors: pink, red, blue, mint green, emerald green and coral. But recently, I've taken a liking to another fun color - lavender. It has such a jovial appeal. I also find it very relaxing to have this color in my environment.
Don't you just love?:
What I wouldn't give to have this scene to look at everyday from my backyard
I want a lavender dress
A Lavender bedroom / room in the house
Of course, lavender cupcakes!!!
And therefore, why not a lavender party?
Lavender fashion
I just love lavender, don't you?
Don't you just love?:
What I wouldn't give to have this scene to look at everyday from my backyard
I want a lavender dress
A Lavender bedroom / room in the house
Of course, lavender cupcakes!!!
And therefore, why not a lavender party?
Lavender fashion
I just love lavender, don't you?
Thursday, June 2, 2011
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