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My life has been consisting of applying for jobs (with no success, yet), having over the phone interviews (again, with no success..yet), movie nights on Tuesday Cheap Night with other unemployed friends, going for walks in the park and downtown in my city since the weather has been BEAUTIFUL, keeping up with my pinterest addiction, sporadic coffee dates, trips to the new Menchie's frozen yogurt shop here in town (which by the way, is dee-lish!), karaoke, destroying old clothes to make them hip and vintage, making friends with a donkey, making friends with a new girl from Brazil, going to the gym, reading "The Hunger Games" trilogy, and working the odd shift at my part-time job in the nursing home.
Very random and aimless. But it's been keeping my stress levels down as I could allow my mind to think some very negative thoughts about myself for being in this place I am now. I really did not anticipate to be in this position with a nursing degree and no job or form of financial stability or life of my own.
It's kind of embarrassing that I have a perfectly useful degree but I'm still living under my parent's roof, eating their groceries, using up their hot water and electricity. I still do not have my license.
I look at a lot of other people my age and think, wow, they all seem to have to together. They have good paying jobs, maybe already married or engaged, they either own or are in the process of building their own house, they have their own car, and maybe, just maybe, they have entered the stage where they are ready to have kids.
I just feel that right now, I have nothing figured out. I have no idea where I'm going next or what I'm doing. It's a comfort to know that I'm not the only one my age in this predicament. But I'd like to know, from an experienced "life liver", how long this "phase" of not knowing what the heck to do after graduating lasts?
I went into nursing because I felt that it was something that God wanted me to do. But here I am, degree in hand, all the hard work over, and I'm looking up to the heavens and thinking "Now what?". I know right now, that I'm probably going to have to leave my province. But I'm perfectly okay with that. In fact, I think I need it. The question is, I need some way of getting out of here.
I've been applying for jobs across the country since March and hardly any luck. There are days where I'm hopeful and I try to stay positive that something good will happen. But I have other days where I get depressed. I start to internalize everything and think there must be something wrong with me because I don't have a job.
I'll just stay positive more and pray that good things are coming my way. :)
