What a week. Finally over

One stressful week is finally over with.

I finished my careplan and prep forms.
Passed my lab exam.
Did well on my med surge exam.

And tonight, I sung my little heart out at karaoke, something I've never said I'd do.
I had a ball. I made my friend cry. I had a boy come up and tell me he wanted to
marry me so I could sing to him every night. LOL.

I big self-esteem boost was exactly what I needed.
I also have developed a dislike for getting drunk. I don't mind the casual drink,
but getting smashed really makes me sick and feel stupid. I can also just have just
as much fun, if not more, sober.

I feel really good about things in my life.

I have a new job for the summer, and my plan of action is to save up and make a trip
to Vancouver in August. I need to get off the island. I just have this ultra-strong
desire to go to the farthest end of the country from here.

I want to take piano lessons.
I know a little bit, but I want to be able to play and sing at the same time.

I have been very inspired by this lady Bianca Juarez. She is "BiancaFlower" on youtube.


She is probably one of the most influential Christian role models I've seen. I aspire to be like her :)



Yeah, the whole Christian thing.
Trying to get up on that.
I've slipped up alot in the past couple years, progressively getting worse, and I've
come to a point in my life where the I really need to make my mind up about how I'm
going to life. Whether it be for the lord or not. And if so, I want it to be all or nothing. Not half in the bag, like before.

I am going to use this summer to reflect. Part of the reason why I'm taking a trip.
I need to figure out who I am and what is it that I really want and need to do with
my life.

A Hard day's night, and I've been working like a dog.

The next month is going to be utter stress and chaos.

So much studying, so much prep, so many lab skills to practice, so many social events to juggle to prevent me from going insane.

Friday, March 18th:
-Pediatrics lab exam
-Oncology care plan due
-Oncology patient prep forms due

Friday, March 25th:
-Med-Surg lab exam
-Oncology Prep forms due
-Oncology self-appraisal due

Saturday, March 26th:
-Nursing Charity Ball!

Monday, April 11th:
-Leadership final exam

Wednesday, April 13th:
-Med-Surge final exam


I was planning on taking a good bit of this weekend off to do diddly squat. After I finish those stupid prep forms (which will be around 8pm Friday night, from the looks of it!), I was thinking of going to see a movie. "Beastly" was what I originally wanted to see. But according to film reviews from my friends who have seen it, I've heard it was lame and cheesy and not to waste my money on it. Too bad, because I was really looking forward to it.

I had a job interview last week. I really hope I get it. I've worked there before, and got hired for a second summer even, but had to turn the job down because I had gotten a job with a bigger salary.

I have lots of goals for this summer, as this is my actual last "fun" summer being a student.

1. Get my license. I am planning to start driving school after preceptorship (which ends at the start of July). I know the classes are every Saturday for a couple of months, so I'm planning to have my license defintely by December or earlier, if possible.

2. Make my own clothes. I hate that the place where I live has nothing original in the realm of fashion. Everyone shops at the same stores and everyone has the same thing, which is so so boring. If you want something the slightest bit unique and high-fashion, you end up paying a fortune for it. I have resorted to buying the majority of my clothes either online (which can add up even if the clothes are cheap due to the costs of shipping), ask my mom to shop for me when she goes away, or buy things myself when I go on vacation.

I have a couple of things I have in mind I am dying to make:

-flutter sleeved shirt dress
-pink tutu-style skirt





3. Finish my nursing school scrapbook I started last summer, but never finished

4. Save up money to go to Vancouver at the end of the summer

5. Go see a concert. I was lucky enough to see Buble last summer. I'm thinking Katy Perry this summer, if she happens to be touring in BC or Seattle the same time I'll be there.

6. Read 6 books. I haven't decided which ones yet, though.


Anyway, back to working on my nursing care plan.

Horray.

Mind like a Sith..

So, a couple of memorable things happened this week which are near and dear to my heart:

1. March 8th, is National Endometriosis Awareness Day.



It's shocking and unbelievable how many women suffer in this disease in secret because they are too embarrassed by the type of pain and symptoms which prohibit them from living a normal life.

As a health care professional AND as one who personally suffers from endometriosis, I completely advocate to support and try to eradicate this terrible disease.

2. Happy birthday Barbie! My best childhood friend. She turned 52 yesterday, March 9th. Who was your favorite Barbie?



Mine was 'Baywatch Barbie' :)


So I've had an overall lame day today, but without going into details, it wasn't the worst of the worse and I anticipate good things to come.

Nursing school

Nursing school is actually driving me crazy.
I think I have aspects of every one of these psychological conditions:

Hypochondriasis
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
Bipolar Disorder
Depression
Anxiety
Cyclothymia

I'm on oncology now, which is making me THE WORST. I'm frightened to death of killing a patient. Frightened to death. I'm so scared that if I cough or sneeze just once I need to completely bathe my body in a alcohol-rub dispenser bath. I'm frightened to death they are going to catch some random virus off of me that even I am unaware of just because my immune system is in good shape, and completely kill them all because of their febrile neutropenia.

I have dreams that my hair is falling out because I'm afraid of chemo drugs. I am actually afraid of them. Not that us as student nurses can give them, but if I have to hang a saline IV (let's just say) and the chemo medication is next to it, I freak out inside, man. Freak out.

I become attached to my patients and feel horrible for them and their families because they have to go through such a shitty disease. It makes me mad to watch these people suffer.

And then, I read the pamplets about different types of cancer on my floor and start self diagnosing if I happen to have a couple of the symptoms. Like today, I swore up and down that I had esophageal cancer. I truly did. I have GERD already, which is a cause. I have binged drank in the past, another cause. Plus, I have difficulty swallowing, pain in my chest, and I lost like 10 lbs in the last couple months for no apparent reason - all symptoms. Seriously. I almost cried and everything.

I come home and cry for hours. And then I laugh to kill myself for no reason.

So weird.

I am telling you.


Nursing school makes you freaking crazy.

Fashionnnn

So, as I'm hoping this blog will bring sunshine, blue skies and flowers, I will do a list of this spring / summer season's hottest trends.

1. FLoral Trend:



This is why I "enjoy being a girl". You get to wear fun, pretty prints like this :)


2. Nautical trend:




This can be done tastefully, without looking like a sailor costume


3. Socks with shoes





This includes sandals. There, I said it, socks with sandals. Cool sandals, that is. You wouldn't dare go out in socks and flip flops!)

4. Broques



Last summer, jazz flats were the "safe" introduction to these swanky vintage vibe shoes, and now they are in full force everywhere!

5. Lady-like structured bags:


Say goodbye to the hobo bag!

6. Wooden and clog sandals






7. Tropical Makeup Shades:


These became very popular in the fall and are a hit again for the summer. Tortoise-shell frame prints are very in for summer.
Bright shadow, thin black liner on top lips, matte face, bold lips to compliment eyes

8. Nerdy glasses:



9. Funky colored / printed platforms


Think Rihanna in her new "S&M" video

*Last but not least, my two favorite fashion inspirations especially for this upcomming spring season:

Katy Perry and Rachel from "Glee"! :)

Katy:






Rachel:





Enough for me. Back to the books I go :)