So, I haven't updated in a longgg time, but I've been super busy with family and friends and whatnot.
2010 gracefully ended and 2011 has commenced. I have a short list of goals of things which I want to accomplish for this year:
1. Learn more of the piano
2. Read at least 10 books outside of school books
3. Become involved in 3 big volunteering events (I have Relay for Life on the 29th, which is the first big event)
4. Eat at least 5 servings of fruits / veggies each day
5. Go to the gym at least 3 times a week
6. Save money to go on a trip at the end of the summer with Matt
7. Get my license by the end of 2011
8. Quit binge drinking (I don't drink alot as a rule, and when I do, lately, it's been heavvvvyyy. Need to stop that, pronto!)
9. Eat less processed foods (Cereals, pasta, juice and yogurt are the only exceptions)
10. Befriend someone I normally wouldn't
Okay. So, that number 10, hey? I remember watching "A Walk to Remember" years ago and remembering this was one of the things on the character Jamie's list of life goals. Not that I'm not a friendly person, but I tend to stick with people who have similiar traits with me. I don't try this, but it naturally happens. I'm not really sure who this person may be or what personality traits they may have that makes them one who I wouldn't normally befriend, but I'm leaving all that up to God.
Another big goal of mine, though I don't know how much control I have in the matter is getting better. As I've mentioned in previous blogs, I've been diagnosed with a potentially serious condition called endometriosis, in particular, endometriosis of the urinary tract. This means I have an extension of my uterine lining growing all over my bladder, ureters and kidneys. It's one of the more serious forms and I'm trying my best to stay positive about it. It's very possible I may need surgury sometime this year if the medication can't stop the growth of endo. I'm pretty scared of that. After watching a few surguries of other people, I'm not too sure it's the type of thing I want done on myself.
My biggest fear is that I'll become so debilitated, I won't be able to complete my year and end up graduating a year late. I'm also concerned on how this will impact my relationship with Matt. Not that I have to worry about this yet, but there is a chance I may be unable to carry a child to full term with this disease. It also apparently makes seuxal acitivity near to impossible in more severe stages of endometriosis, because it becomes immensely painful.
I'm very fortunate that Matt is so understanding. I honestly couldn't ask for any better. He understands it isn't my fault and that while I have this disease inside my body, it does not define who I am. If anything, it's helped to built a stronger character within me.
People will just have to understand that sometimes I'm too sick to go out, too sick to study, too sick to go to school, etc. I realise though that friends come and go, your real friends will stand by you, no matter what. They won't be offended if you haven't been able to see them in a month, because you've been in too much pain to leave your bed.
On a different topic, I attended a "Katy Perry" themed birthday party for my friend Erin this past Saturday. It was a ton of fun filled with cute bows and ribbons, candy, cupcakes, cakes, pink and sparkles. I was tottally digging the girly retro-pop feel, and realised that THAT is my style to a tee!
100% adorable!
And for those of you who are wondering about my outfit:
Corset: Sirens, yearssss ago
High Waisted yellow pants: American Apparel
Red Hair bow (unseen): American Apparel
Pearl earrings: Icing by Claire's
I'm beyond obsessed with the cutesy retro-pop look.
Anywhoo. To the shower and bed I go :)
Nighty!
